it hurts

i know how horrible it feels to want to be seen so i carry a camera and shoot this feeling out of others? and masturbate with it too?

also what the fucccck i forgot i had found my favorite hat in march after having lost it for months... then it disappeared shortly after once the housing panic started. god damn........

also also fuck i used to dress a lot more fun. and go out more. ugh. it's too hot and non air conditioned in here for me to think anything like that though. i'm barely more than a corpse right now. it's all so heavy. so so sos os so so os so heavy. there's still so much to do. fuck.

birdflight ending

shapness shapeneeness pshshshah shapes

;)

fun camera

i felt the individual balloon photo was too busy so why not make it worse

view of it in darktable before export second

playin around with darktables filmic rgb again. its soooo finicky its almost an intuitive way to do S curving but then on some photos its just kinda a nightmare of tweaking numbers hoping for something good.

its not it
not yet
requires further development