the cardinal that lives in the trees behind my house

trying out some blend of local contrast edits and agx anddd its overcooking the images a bit, but i think maybe i can work with it. i think if i can tame it agx could be a quicker way to slap some S curving on my images before doing local contrast detail work instead of using rawtherapee for curving

oh and yeah, there are shooting ranges in malls in america. because apparently everyone here fantasizes about firing off guns in the mall and needs an outlet to do so.. safely. i guess. (first one is a lightgun sorta deal and the second one is an airsoft range so, no gunpowder, but still uh. still a bit weird.)

Earth's moon on May 2nd, 2025

it hurts

i know how horrible it feels to want to be seen so i carry a camera and shoot this feeling out of others? and masturbate with it too?

also what the fucccck i forgot i had found my favorite hat in march after having lost it for months... then it disappeared shortly after once the housing panic started. god damn........

also also fuck i used to dress a lot more fun. and go out more. ugh. it's too hot and non air conditioned in here for me to think anything like that though. i'm barely more than a corpse right now. it's all so heavy. so so sos os so so os so heavy. there's still so much to do. fuck.

birdflight ending

shapness shapeneeness pshshshah shapes

real shit

;)

we must go further beyond close focus. we must go closer than focus. we have to go through it. we are always going through it

fun camera

i felt the individual balloon photo was too busy so why not make it worse