it hurts

i know how horrible it feels to want to be seen so i carry a camera and shoot this feeling out of others? and masturbate with it too?

also what the fucccck i forgot i had found my favorite hat in march after having lost it for months... then it disappeared shortly after once the housing panic started. god damn........

also also fuck i used to dress a lot more fun. and go out more. ugh. it's too hot and non air conditioned in here for me to think anything like that though. i'm barely more than a corpse right now. it's all so heavy. so so sos os so so os so heavy. there's still so much to do. fuck.

getting in the habit of just doing this as a default. keep the Q on me all the time, really just snap and not think. its a nice change of pace from my usual meticulous processing. next up im gonna experiment with adding an aperture disk (tinfoil with hole) behind the fisheye lens to see if i can turn it into a focus-free lens.

found an actual tripod and had fun with it in the garden!
using a tripod is fun actually! at least for small things.
speaking of, macro shooting is not fun on a non-close-focusing lens x . x
setting minimum focus distance then moving the whole tripod back and forth, don't recommend! (i guess you do this during Real Macro too, but there you have the wiggle room to focus out to like 1:2-1:4 magnification and still have a Pretty Big small subject).

2nd shot is very busy and i should've stopped the aperture down even more than just f8 but i'm still pretty happy with it.

or polarized deltachrome? whatever we can just say words. saw ppl in #cool-pictures talk about the technique so here's my go at it. 3 shots with a circular polarizer at different rotations then composed as RGB. not the most interesting subject, but those cars sure can shiny! (i cant find my tripod so front porch shot will do for now)

mirror fun