uneasy framing

day and day

i think i still prefer doing tonecurves in rawtherapee then local contrast in darktable over agx :p #mymethod (theyre pretty similar in end result but my way just feels more predictable and consistent. using rawtherapee to create the shape of the curve then exposure tool works like the pivot and the local contrast stretching finetunes the curve and lets me choose whether i want a grayer more detailed image or a more smooth and high contrasty image which is like the black point white point settings i think but just. wayy more intuitive imo)

trying out some blend of local contrast edits and agx anddd its overcooking the images a bit, but i think maybe i can work with it. i think if i can tame it agx could be a quicker way to slap some S curving on my images before doing local contrast detail work instead of using rawtherapee for curving

oh and yeah, there are shooting ranges in malls in america. because apparently everyone here fantasizes about firing off guns in the mall and needs an outlet to do so.. safely. i guess. (first one is a lightgun sorta deal and the second one is an airsoft range so, no gunpowder, but still uh. still a bit weird.)

it hurts

i know how horrible it feels to want to be seen so i carry a camera and shoot this feeling out of others? and masturbate with it too?

also what the fucccck i forgot i had found my favorite hat in march after having lost it for months... then it disappeared shortly after once the housing panic started. god damn........

also also fuck i used to dress a lot more fun. and go out more. ugh. it's too hot and non air conditioned in here for me to think anything like that though. i'm barely more than a corpse right now. it's all so heavy. so so sos os so so os so heavy. there's still so much to do. fuck.

birdflight ending