indication of depression... or genius variations on a theme???
trying out some blend of local contrast edits and agx anddd its overcooking the images a bit, but i think maybe i can work with it. i think if i can tame it agx could be a quicker way to slap some S curving on my images before doing local contrast detail work instead of using rawtherapee for curving
oh and yeah, there are shooting ranges in malls in america. because apparently everyone here fantasizes about firing off guns in the mall and needs an outlet to do so.. safely. i guess. (first one is a lightgun sorta deal and the second one is an airsoft range so, no gunpowder, but still uh. still a bit weird.)
it hurts
i know how horrible it feels to want to be seen so i carry a camera and shoot this feeling out of others? and masturbate with it too?
also what the fucccck i forgot i had found my favorite hat in march after having lost it for months... then it disappeared shortly after once the housing panic started. god damn........
also also fuck i used to dress a lot more fun. and go out more. ugh. it's too hot and non air conditioned in here for me to think anything like that though. i'm barely more than a corpse right now. it's all so heavy. so so sos os so so os so heavy. there's still so much to do. fuck.
birdflight ending
shapness shapeneeness pshshshah shapes
;)
fun camera
i felt the individual balloon photo was too busy so why not make it worse
view of it in darktable before export second
playin around with darktables filmic rgb again. its soooo finicky its almost an intuitive way to do S curving but then on some photos its just kinda a nightmare of tweaking numbers hoping for something good.
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@999999999 hi, sorry for the long delay, i'm in a strange place with photography currently but it'll come back (as always, its fatal)
please write in ways that make you comfortable. no need to lock yourself
i don't have words to react to what you wrote, without repeating myself at least. so, i'll recommend you a book i thought you might like
the first Surrealist Manifesto
(André Breton, 1924)
you might have already read it, but if not, i feel like it would be a read you'd echo with. i'd be curious to know how you feel about it too
@(: ❤️ thanks. hope you've been doing alright too.
more and more shit keeps going strange and wrong and it's starting to feel like rather than bouncing back, maybe i'll be pounded into the other side of it all. we're barely into this year and it's been so weird already.
bad things happening to me/those around me is more exciting than the rot i think.
a sine wave between nervous energy and body-melting lethargy.
i'm simultaneously more inspired and more paralyzed than ever.
i'm going through it while asking "what's coming up next?".
i want to erode the barrier between thought and action.
i'm typing this unhinged message to you sleep deprived and coming down from disaster energy instead of: reading your messages, then closing the webpage and telling myself i'll respond when i wake back up, waking back up, forgetting to respond all day, opening this page, then spending a few minutes typing out a very carefully crafted 2 or 3 sentence reply.
fuck it. now is the time to be stranger than the world is to me.
i photograph the street view a lot too, let's pretend its genius for our own sake eh? i hope you'll be fine. if this means anything to you, i think you're doing very interesting things with your photography lately, however i hope its not eating you