@aromoma I shoulda had more faith in Eva! I shoulda followed my heart!!! Really glad to hear that, though.

That's VERY kind of you to say. Gosh. Gee. And it is kinda weird, haha, but in the best way (NOT in a bad or creepy way, I should clarify)! I wish people were always so open; Goddamn that would be great for my anxiety. (And I also wish I were brave enough to just be that open myself! I look forward to getting to know you better as well. You're rad and very sweet!)

(And I'm not gonna get sick of your story drawings. I'll just stubbornly love them. That's how I am!)

@Ashly haha, if you're hoping for eva to be redeemed, you'll be pleasantly surprised! she has a lot of character growth from beginning to end i even ended up liking her more than i initially thought i would (because she hits rock bottom very early on).

and you don't have to apologize for something you didn't know. there's not much in this world that bothers me more than stupidity and as far as i know about you, you're better than 95% percent of the people i've met. i hope this doesn't sound weird, but i look forward to getting to know you more and deepening our friendship.

(on the comment about the story drawings)
d'aww, shucks! there are a lot more drawings i do for the story that i don't post because it'll easily make my posts long, but i'm working on it hard everyday, so you'll probably get tired of seeing it at some point lol.

@aromoma Oh, cool, Johan gets ~even creepier and scarier~, haha. Cool cool. And I'm so naive!! I keep wanting this Eva gal to grow into a decent person!! I tend to root for the chick with 'resting bitch face', because, yo, that's me! Never ends well. They're always just the worst. Maybe next time.

If Utena makes you ramble-y, then I'm glad I started off with it! I like your rambles! (AND, it's really nice to know I'm not the only one who gets a bit personal, haha.) So far, I've only seen four episodes, so I don't have much of a response to your essay. Except to say I'm relating to Anthy as well, the little I've seen, though more for personality reasons rather than circumstantial. She's shy and quiet and alone. Makes animal friends. She's kiiinnnddddaaaaa weird. The episode with the snails and the mongoose and giant octopus is really very hilarious. Also, it's Very Cute that you relate to Anthy and she relates to Utena!!!!!!

And I didn't know you were asexual! I mean, obviously I did't know. You never mentioned it. But now I'm racing through my memory trying to recall if my own assumptions led me to saying something in our convos that you'd have found frustrating and/or irritating! If so, apologies! Yell at me!

Edit: Oh! And I can't wait to see more of this story you're working on! I'm getting hyped

@Ashly

yeah, monster be getting tense, yo! i just remember towards the end of the series, whenever the camera lingered on johan's face staring, it literally struck fear into me, they build him up so well...and i think i know what part you're at. the plot takes interesting turns from that point, ah jeez i don't wanna spoil anything!

and yuh-huh, it can be hard to understand Utena the first round through. i think i came across a site a long time ago that had essays decoding all the symbolism, but i could at least understand what happened, just not interpret it. but OH BOY anthy! She's my babe!

and this might be a bit personal, but i spiritually relate to anthy so hard. my past is very similar to her predicament. it gives me chills down my spine, like someone broke down the mindset i used to have and made a character out of it. anthy is a very mysterious, deep and complex character and it broke my heart when i read that some people saw her as malicious (for reasons you'll probably see later).

the thing Utena does so well is layering how sex and sexuality is experienced as a person gets older. and (me) being asexual, it's interesting how it seems like sex corrupts a person (though that's not the message the show is trying to get across, it's a bit more complicated than that). I watched it at a time where i was fighting depression and cynicism because of what i had been through, which is probably why i feel like at points in the story, i'm just like anthy. when i watched it with the bae, she mentioned to me that at certain parts she felt like utena, so the story takes up a certain place within my heart that i can't really forget.

sorry i rambled! eheh...utena makes me get deep.

@aromoma I can't believe I forgot robot's name is Lunge. Unacceptable on my part. Anyway, Monster's getting really real. Just refuses to slow down AT ALL. Tenma's DEFINITELY gonna get blamed for this family's murder. You can only be there at the scene so many times before you convince even a robot that you're a murderer.

I don't think I'm smart enough for Utena! I think I really like it, but wow. You weren't kidding about all the allusions and metaphors and symbolism and shit. AND IF PEOPLE DON'T STOP SLAPPING ANTHY, I'M CLIMBING INTO THIS TABLET AND SAVING HER MYSELF.

And yeah, backs are the worst! Why do we even need them? I'm glad your gf seems to have figured hers out. Definitely gonna be a week for me this go around. Weh.

that's the guy! that's him! the guy that's actually a robot!

also, hope you get better soon! the bae used to have back problems too when she was still growing, and she was out for almost a week, so i know it can be tough.