Yeah, chipper, optimistic advice given in good faith. I say that to make sure it's clear I'm not mad when I say, I've heard it often ;)

There's something in the way of 'just doing it', in the way my personality is put together. Luckily I have collaborative projects enough, at work and elsewhere. Just wish to find a way to be more coherent all by myself.

Spending some time on my day off to develop a more easy to use personal website, to work as an archive/timeline of creative stuff. Maybe something will emerge?

sounds like a plan