Yesterday I got up at 6:30. I knew this was my only chance to get my daily to-dos done, so I jumped out of bed, did my physio-exercises and took a shower. After that I sat down at my laptop, while my girlfriend was still asleep. First, I wrote down my 10 ideas, because I hadn't written them down the day before. It wasn't that hard, but ideas always take time. Then I wrote my daily amount of words (279, which is 200 plus my streak number). I wrote a poem-like text about some of the things I like and was pretty happy with it. Then it was time to go to work.
I was stressed at work for two reasons. One: today we launched the game we've been working on for almost a year, so I was buried in work to get everything perfect for the big day. Two: It was "Back to the Future"-day and I had tickets to the Triple-Feature, which started at 17:30, meaning I had to leave work one hour early. I don't remember when I last worked that hard and that fast and while it was also fun, I was exhausted as shit when it was finally 17:00 and I was done with everything.
I left for the train, met up with my friends and we enjoyed about 6 hours of 1980's cinema. Even though I had showed the trilogy to my girlfriend only a few months ago I enjoyed the films very much. Especially the first one is so well-written and some of the scenes and cuts are just incredible. At 23:30 it was all over and we hadn't even eaten anything except for nachos and M&M's. We took the last train home and fell asleep soon.
Today at work I remembered that I had totally forgotten to post into the streak.club.This year I wrote more than in any other year before. I began by blogging daily for several reasons. First, I wanted to get better at writing. Second, I wanted to prove to myself that I can deliver on a promise, in this case to publish some text every day. Third, I wanted to get over my fear of having my writing judged by others by just don't giving a shit and publishing anyway no matter how bad it is. But it was after a month of posting that I realized I wasn't good at coming up with (good) new stuff every day, which was about the time when I found out about the streak.club.I liked that here I didn't have to publish my writing while still having this confirmation in form of the streak list, so I switched from blogging to the streak.club. Now, about 8 months after I made my first post, I would like to say goodbye for the following 2 reasons.
1) The streak was dead when I started posting, but right after that more people saw that there was some activity and posted their stuff too. Feeling like an inspiration motivated me hugely - for about a week. Then everyone dropped out again and I was the only person posting. After that there never was more than 2 posts a day - which was very rare as you can see to your right. Now I've been the only one writing for a long time and while it doesn't bother me that much I still hoped that more people would join. I don't feel entirely alone here (I know some of you will read this), but it just isn't a huge motivation being the only regular poster here.
2) Most days I write without aim. I just want to get the work done and that is killing the spirit of it. In order to write something worthwhile you need to have what others might call 'vision'. Something to aim for. While I write this I aim to create a text that explains my departure from the streak.club and it makes writing so much easier and so much better. In my experience, doing something just that you can put the cross on your tick-off list can be a good enough start to get the body used to this new activity. However if the mind just aims to get the task over with (as opposing to getting it done), this can become very demotivating. Sadly this is what my writing has become over the last weeks. If you've followed my entries you know that I followed some stories for a few days, or picked up old ones to add some details, but that after that I lost focus and went back to just mainly journaling. I am simply not good at going somewhere without a goal, because I am a thinker. Not trying to sound arrogant here - quite the opposite actually - it's just a fact that I think a lot and while this is ok most of the time, I tend to panic when I have too much time to over-think things. So when I work too long on something without knowing the direction I freak out and am likely to quit entirely, which is what's happening right now. I don't see a point in writing daily at the moment, so I will stop and start again when I feel like it.
This will definitely not be the end of my writing, because writing has always been a part of my life. I'll just continue when I've found something to write about.
Cheers and see you around, guys!
P.S.: I feel proud about this submission :)
Wrote the concept for an app I want to make
Wrote a little review about Telltale's "Game of Thrones"
I started my explanation on why I'm leaving the streak club. It will be published here.
Some philosophy and some comedy. Really didn't feel like writing today.
More "comedy". I'm not good at this so far
Tried to write comedy again
Wrote a short review of "Le petit prince" in German
I wrote about the deception of memories
I wrote a short review about "In the Heart of the Sea"
I wrote more about productivity
I wrote something about motivation and productivity
Wrote a short story about some pirates.
Started a little story about a man inside the head, who composes our dreams
I wrote down some thoughts about my girlfriend, about love and about the purpose of words.
Tried comedy, but wrote mostly about boobs.
Tried comedy again.
Wrote something motivational about myself
Tried to write comedy again
I tried to write comedy again.
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